Without Vince's Companion Day 202

It's less than 2 weeks' time for me to prepare for a brand new life... a life that i've been longed for since these few months, i hope... there's not much to do actually... it's just that i haven't have this kind of feeling for a pretty long time and it suddenly come back and i am a bit lost... Going back to the polluted city again to chase my dream... same old brand new environment and people... I am a bit nervous but i will get myself together, i hope... My parents say i should have choose other course to study instead of what i am doing right now, they say i should have choose another school instead of this where i am about to step my feet in, they say i should have find other place to stay instead of where i am about to stay... A lot of 'should have' but I told them not to worry about their daughter because she can make through these... She always does... so just sit back and relax...

I choose to smile when grey clouds are gathering above my head because i truly believe that there'll always be a silver lining behind those grey clouds...

Without Vince's Companion Day 198

My family has green fingers...


Dad's flower(he's pretty proud of this)

Green vege by my mum

Mum's fruit

Orchid by my mum

mint plant by my mum


My mum's herb

This is what my parents do during weekends... Everybody's good at something, they are good at these... My parents will spend the whole afternoon in their little garden without feeling tired... They come back only when they feel hungry... These are my parents... I love them more than anything in this earth...

Cherish

Many times I wished that I am away from where I was...

I wished to disminish with the wind...

I wished to sleep and never get up because getting up means to face

the cruety of life that no one can hide away from...

No matter how hard I try not to think, the very image kept appearing inside my

head and I have no effort to fight it off...

I have grown from these few days' incident, we have grown...

the pain is unbearable...

we all learnt to cherish the people around us from that day onwards...

not that we don't appreciate them before this but is that we have no concern about the things going around us everyday...

Memories can never be erased by nobody, no matter how and when...

They will live on in the bottom of our hearts forever...

Say whatever u wanna say now, do whatever u wanna do now because

tomorrow maybe one day late...

Without Vince's Companion Day 186

I am sitting inside the office feeling exhausted while the cold and rainy spell occurs outside the office window... I am feeling desparate of going to kl right now and this is the only thought spinning round and round inside my head... I cannot quite concentrate on my work which is a bad sign but who cares... as long as i get my work done, and that's what really matters... sound irresponsible but trust me when u are in the position I am right now, u will do the same... /Sigh...

Miss my study so much... Miss my best friends (though we seldom gather due to the separation) ... Miss my bf... Lots to miss but now I miss my bed... I want to sleep right now... I want to walk out of this office and go home to sleep... But i still have plenty of chores to be accomplished...

/Sigh... Lunch break is over... Have to get back to work... Good day everybody =)

Without Vince's Companion Day 182

I am a blessed person... I am always surrounded by lovely people... I have a great family, wonderful friends, adorable bf, a warming home to stay, friendly colleagues...

There's always someone to hear me out when I want to speak, there's always someone there for me when I want to cry ny heart out, there's always someone to lend me a hand when I can't get things done by myself, there's always someone there to comfort me when I need it, there's always someone there to catch me when I'm about to collapse, there's always someone there to keep me going, there are always someone there to let me know that they care...

I am so blessed and I am sincerely grateful for those who are there for me for all these times...

Thank you ...

Without Vince's Companion Day 173

I felt so hurt... But I can't blame anyone because I am not caring enough... Guess I am just not the kind of friend anyone would wished for... I am sorry for that... I guess I am just not good in expressing myself sometimes... I don't know how to use beautiful language to speak doesn't mean that I don't care... I would send a message once in the blue moon doesn't mean that I have forgotten all about you guys...

If only I could make things right... If only I could turn back time... But I know I can't and I am really sorry... No words can articulate how I feel now... I am speechless... My heart is bleeding... My heart aches... I suppose I am really not a good friend after all...

No one knows how I must have felt right now... Just let it be...

Isn't this the way people grow? I suppose it is...

Without Vince's Companion Day 172

I never realize that she has became old... Older since I have get to know her... My mum said she can't sleep and she wants me to accompany her till she is asleep...

Last night, we had our daily mother-daughter's talk in her room... I felt sleepy already and was about to get up and walk to my room, she stopped me... She told me not to go but to accompany her till she fell asleep... And so I laid down beside her again... She wanted me to talk to her and then I started to tell her what I have done in my workplace... She closed her eyes and listen to me... Out of the sudden, I realized my mum is not young anymore... I have been away from home for such a long time... never knowing that she is not young anymore... she developes all her youth, energy, time, money,her everything on the four of us...

Now I can never understand why she never left something for herself but give all the best to her 3 children... Maybe one day when I am a mother myself then I will understand...

My mum is my best friend... she is always there to hear me out... she is the one who always encourage me... though she is not very supportive to my decisions sometimes... i know she cares... I am not a good daughter though... I always argue with her when there are differs in our opinions... I am sorry every time really... And I apologized... but I tends to repeat that mistake after sometime... I am really sorry~~

Mother is not a cushy character for a person... Especially when that person has a daughter like me... My mum is great... She is a mother anyone would have wished for... I am so blessed to have her in my life... She makes this disintegrating world a better world to be...

Love you... Mum!!!