It's been a tough week. I am getting bored of my straight long hair. It's time to have a change. I think I need a new bag, a new pair of shoes, a couple of new outfit or a new life.
It's been blue throughout the week. My boss is driving me crazy, I know most of the boss is like that. But now I just want to ignore him all the while. Because he is being ridiculous, arrogant, disrespectful, talking like he is someone who is really keen in what he is doing (this I agree), noisy, acting like he is on the top of the world and now I just want to stop thinking about him. He said the 3 QSs he hired are not aggressive enough. He said we should go to look for good tenders and come back to him and said "boss, I want us to get this tender!". Then he began to pick on me. He started off with "Miss Kiew, never think that you have a master degree then you are good already!", then "Miss Kiew, academic is just a basic of what you are doing now. Academic itself actually has no much help in your career. You can't learn everything in the uni. You are lack of experience. ( I know that and that's what I am trying to get now)", after a little while he continued to remind me that having a cert is not everything... and more on the topic that having a cert is not everything, Miss Kiew this, Miss Kiew that. He said he worked really hard when he was young to stand where he is standing now. He wants us to set him as a role model. Just stop all these nonsense, please. I don't want to stand in his position. And I never will see him as my role model because my father is better off. Well, excuse me, I never ever think that I am good with a cert! Neither did I tell my colleagues that I got a cert. He is the one who introduced me as the new QS lady with a master degree to everyone!!!
About not being aggressive, that really pissed me off. What does he meant by not being aggressive? If I were to be not aggressive enough, now I am just a small account clerk or an admin clerk with a Form Six qualification, not a QS with a mater qualification. I turned my parents down to go further study, I got myself a diploma and then went off to get a bachelor of degree. After that I convinced my father to let me complete a master program and at the end of the day I was commented of being not aggressive! Now, tell me what is aggressive.
I hate being looked down and I will prove him wrong. I want him to regret what he had said about me. Like he said, I am still young, how can he conclude that I do not have any plannings for my near future? Never expect me to get involved in this company for a protracted time, never!!!
I am exhausted. My dark circles and eye bags are haunting me. I feel like dying...
p/s: Happy New Year!!! Year 2010, a brand new year, a brand new life!!!
