Without Vince's Companion Day 173

I felt so hurt... But I can't blame anyone because I am not caring enough... Guess I am just not the kind of friend anyone would wished for... I am sorry for that... I guess I am just not good in expressing myself sometimes... I don't know how to use beautiful language to speak doesn't mean that I don't care... I would send a message once in the blue moon doesn't mean that I have forgotten all about you guys...

If only I could make things right... If only I could turn back time... But I know I can't and I am really sorry... No words can articulate how I feel now... I am speechless... My heart is bleeding... My heart aches... I suppose I am really not a good friend after all...

No one knows how I must have felt right now... Just let it be...

Isn't this the way people grow? I suppose it is...

Without Vince's Companion Day 172

I never realize that she has became old... Older since I have get to know her... My mum said she can't sleep and she wants me to accompany her till she is asleep...

Last night, we had our daily mother-daughter's talk in her room... I felt sleepy already and was about to get up and walk to my room, she stopped me... She told me not to go but to accompany her till she fell asleep... And so I laid down beside her again... She wanted me to talk to her and then I started to tell her what I have done in my workplace... She closed her eyes and listen to me... Out of the sudden, I realized my mum is not young anymore... I have been away from home for such a long time... never knowing that she is not young anymore... she developes all her youth, energy, time, money,her everything on the four of us...

Now I can never understand why she never left something for herself but give all the best to her 3 children... Maybe one day when I am a mother myself then I will understand...

My mum is my best friend... she is always there to hear me out... she is the one who always encourage me... though she is not very supportive to my decisions sometimes... i know she cares... I am not a good daughter though... I always argue with her when there are differs in our opinions... I am sorry every time really... And I apologized... but I tends to repeat that mistake after sometime... I am really sorry~~

Mother is not a cushy character for a person... Especially when that person has a daughter like me... My mum is great... She is a mother anyone would have wished for... I am so blessed to have her in my life... She makes this disintegrating world a better world to be...

Love you... Mum!!!

Without Vince's Companion Day 162

I still remember the 1st day we met, in the kitchen... I never thought that we will get alone well and start to have feeling for each other... though it's not a long time really, a month or even shorter I think... But it's really wonderful to have met you... You are so tolerance everytime... so caring now though not very caring the last time... so lovable now and then... so protective over me now and then... so considerable and understanding for always... funny sometimes... tends to forget all about me when you are playing games (unexceptable!!)... there's one more thing I realized, you tends to gain weight... though you say you will try your best to lose some weight and honestly, you did... BUT regain somemore when time passes... It's ok with me though... Not ok for your health... Ok I will stop critisizing your weight...

Long distance relationship is really tiring sometimes (I admit)... and really thank you for supporting me all the way... this is just what I needed... We have been together for almost 3 years and the actual time we are spending with each other is merely 1 full year I think... So I am really glad that this relationship works out for us... I am very blessed to have you... You said you are a lousy bf and indeed you are, sometimes... But not every guy out there is a 10-full-point bf either... I am not a perfect gf myself... But we can still live with our deficiencies... And that is more than enough... Isn't it? I had think of backing off this relationship sometime in the pass for long distance relationship because I thought we can never make it this way... But you told me not to give up and we will never know if we never try out... I took your advice (I always did) and things work out fantastic for the 2 of us...

Few days back, you asked me to cherish you because you are a nice guy... Who ever would ask his own gf to cherish him?? After many days of careful thoughts and considerations(just kidding), I will appreciate you and treasure you like I cherish my teddy bear... I admit, I am stupid sometimes and being a paranoid sometimes, please do forgive me (though I know you will)... We had been doing foolish things together but isn't that what couples usually do? I even watch GANDUM series and many other anime series with you and how dare you forget all about me over a GANDUM... The thing is dead... BUT I am very alive... I just cannot help it, I have to speak up... Ok I will forgive that GANDUM...

This is truly from the bottom of my heart... I LOVE YOU DEER (oops, sorry) DEAR*

Without Vince's Companion Day 155

Time passes in a blink of eye, today is already the 12th of March, I ve a month more left for staying at home... Actually, I m having a long holiday, but I m spending it by working... At first, I felt pretty annoyed being having to work during my long holidays but few days later, I accepted the fact... It's been ok actually... I can earn some pocket money ... I m not a spendthrift though... Everyday after work I feel exhauseted... Sometimes I even left my bed unmade... See how lazy I become... I don't like working because working is a grown-up thing... You know like when u finish school then u have to come out to work... I don't want to grow up... My mother asked me once, 'why do u need to grow up?' I somehow do not have the answer for it... even now... People grow up, this is the path nature takes... I miss those days when I get to stay up late just to watch movies, simply chit-chatting with my 'Lao Ma', surfing the net for information to be put into my assignment, doing the last strike for the 'big game' (usually the exam is the very next day)... This is university life!! People say if u never stay up late to do those things mention above, u are never a uni student... The circumstances to those activities... dark circles... this is how i get mine...

Life is just too short to hold back... treasure everyone and everything around u... strike for ur rights... say the things u want to say, if not tomorrow is too late... do not regret...