June is Here

I have been a member of this construction firm for one year since this May 2010. I entered 4th of June 2009 and one whole year is gone. Achievement is not what I call. I should have pedal harder with all my might. Or I could have learn more. Thank you, Sir. Thank you for all the lessons you taught me. Something changed. Am I too afraid to accept the change or am I just not prepared? I doubt myself. I hope I won't disappoint you.
I told myself many times not to fall for what other people say. Because they might just add some seasonings to the original story. But I can't help to think about it over and over. The more I think, the more it hurts. I know this sounds stupid but I just can't help it. Grow up, girl! Face it! Welcome to the adult world of fantasy!
Why is it so difficult just to do your job and play your own role? Please don't enter into the territory where you are not suppose to step in.
I am truly upset and lost. Should I or should I not? Am I being too firm? I need to talk to someone, I really need to talk from A to Z out loud.

p/s: Please don't underestimate me and Never overestimate me...